Just once more, this will be my last time. I cannot keep doing this, ok maybe just once more. I tried stopping but it hurt so bad. Every bit of my being is craving. Why can’t I stop? Just once more, today was a bad day, tomorrow will be better. My body needs it, I cannot function without it. I want to stop, what is wrong with me? Just once more, I will use less. Just once more, it is all I can think about.
I can be better; I know I can. Please give me one more chance. I will stop, I promise. This is not who I am. Just once more, I promise.
Love the addict.
At first, I could see a change in you, but I did not understand it. I saw your behaviour and moods change. I saw your sleeping and eating patterns deteriorate. I saw you slip away from me a little bit at a time. Some days it feels like I do not know you at all anymore.
Why did it take so long for me to see it? How could I be so blind? All the signs were there. It was right Infront of my eyes.
I do not know what to do anymore. I have tried everything. Nothing is working. If I support you too much, I am told that I am enabling you, if I pull away too much, I am judged for not caring enough. I can’t do “tough” love as I am too scared of losing you. I cannot talk to people about you, they do not understand. I feel so alone and lost. I cannot talk to you as my love is returned with lies and manipulation. I just want you back, I just wish I knew what to do.
Love your family.
Addiction is a disease that affects the brain and behaviour. Many people believe that an addict chooses to be addicted and that they can just stop. However this is far from the truth as an addict cannot resist the urge to use, no matter what bodily harm the drug causes. Without the correct ongoing help, the addiction will continue.
Addiction does not only influence the addict. Living with an addict can be very challenging. It influences the whole family emotionally, mentally and financially.
It is important that the addict and the family seek help as soon as possible.
Registered with Bapsa as a level 4, addiction professional.